Teenage post about how I don’t know who u am or what I want or where I’m going….

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surrounded by family, friends, church, school, society, full of people who are fake. Pretending to be something they’re not, pretending to like something they don’t, and trying to fit into this ‘ideal’ that there just not. People pretend to care when they don’t, pretend to be interested when there not, pretend to love when they just don’t? Is it fair to say it’s just all a complete lie or it can be explained or what, because i just can’t understand it. If I don’t love you, I wont tell you I do. If I don’t care, then I won’t pretend to. If you don’t like me, don’t pretend you do, just to make you look good in-front of visitors, or just because you’re in a position of leadership which makes you feel obliged to care, just don’t do it, stop this whole act. Just because you’re related to me, you don’t have to pretend you care, all it does it make me resent you more because of this act. If a guy is worth loosing other relationships for, then go for it, but be real about it, i just can’t deal with fake. Be real, and be yourself, and do what you want to do. Listen to divine guidance and he’ll help you with the struggles around people and relationships you need to work on, he promises to help us, but he never tells us to be fake.

Rant over.

and renew a steadfast spirit, marked by firm determination or resolution, not shakeable, a man of unbendable perseverance, unwavering loyalty, unshakeable faith, unswerving allegiance, characterized by firmness and determination, stood resolute against the enemy, faced with a resolute opposition, firm, unfaltering, steady, still

Tempted and tried, I wondered why

The good man died, the bad man thrives
And Jesus cries because he loves ‘em both
We’re all cast-aways in need of rope
Hangin’ on by the last threads of our hope
In a house of mirrors full of smoke
Confusing illusions I’ve seen

Where did I go wrong, I sang along
To every chorus of the song
That the devil wrote like a piper at the gates
Leading mice and men down to their fates
But some will courageously escape
The seductive voice with a heart of faith
While walkin’ that line back home

So much more to life than we’ve been told
It’s full of beauty that will unfold
And shine like you struck gold my wayward son
That deadweight burden weighs a ton
Go down into the river and let it run
Wash away all the things you’ve done
Forgiveness alright

Still I get hard pressed on every side
Between the rock and a compromise
Like the truth and pack of lies fightin’ for my soul
And I’ve got no place left go
‘Cause I got changed by what I’ve been shown
More glory than the world has known
Keeps me ramblin’ on

Skipping like a calf loosed from its stall
I’m free to love once and for all
And even when I fall I’ll get back up
For the joy that overflows my cup
Heaven filled me with more than enough
Broke down my levees and my bluffs
Let the flood wash me

And one day when the sky rolls back on us
Some rejoice and the others fuss
‘Cause every knee must bow and tongue confess
That the Son of God is forever blessed
His is the kingdom, we’re the guests
So put your voice up to the test
Sing Lord, come soon 

Farther along we’ll know all about it
Farther along we’ll understand why
So, cheer up my brothers, live in the sunshine
We’ll understand this, all by and by 

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SoulSurvivor- ALC youth,’forgetting our tent’, wrong turns, beating grant, Private Pauline-Gaynor-the-satnav, Chalkboards, S+M, breadsticks, lovehearts, crazy villagehost, GREENN SEVEN, St.Julian’s neighbours, ‘off for a walk’, tarpourline, pop-up tent, running,help for heroes t’s, emergency calls, late nights, wristbands, fear, worship, praise, JESUS, prayer, BBQ’s, trip to tesco’s, darcie, minnie mouse, Dalmatians, group photos, impatience, tiredness, see-thru trousers, Free hugs, inappropriate dress sense, shorts, wellies, HUNTERS,’go and get your plates’, early mornings, loud phonecalls, eggybread, fire in the cooking tent, talking till 4am, garying with tribe and kore, SAXOJACK, moving tents, breaking tents(gethin), putting biffa bins inside gazebos, marriage bets in 5-7years, just dai, water fights, miles and miles to bring a deck chair, food court, YFG stand, Toolshed, phone charging, hena tattoos, free wrist bands, freedom bands, preachers, NUTS, ‘joseph had enough testosterone to jump start an elephant’, fitness routines in the morning, CROWNY, matt redman, 10,000 reasons, holy spirit, healing, peace, forgiveness, revelation, meeting new people, 5am showers, ‘the ones on the left are hot’, embarrassment as you stand in the shower queue, annoying voice, jealously, dressing up, ruth teaching Ed’s youth, dreams, future, comfort, PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING, band stand, mini olympics, grant in girls shorts, willis boys humour, ‘Go hide?’, baby bathing, back door seats, leaving early to get seats, face painting, T-shirt painting(absolute nightmare), spots on your back!, deck chairs, air beds, sleeping bags, damp clothes, damp tents, RAIN, scottish people, Ben from the fringe ;), Cafe’s, milkshakes, ice cream, Choco and marshmallow Crepes <3, phone dieing, Dancing generation dance with hannah and lizzie, abercrombie hoody, pyjama shorts, sunglasses to avoid having to sort out fringe, DARCIE is amazing, earmuffs, loud worship, sanga ozzie preacher, danielle-BAM BAM BABY, out past curfew, tribe guys, compulsive texting/lack of texting, ‘sorry wrong tent’, ‘AHHHHH-will you leave me alone’, tiredness, ‘I’m not going to the meeting’, illness, tropical juice, boiling hot water, POT NOODLES, The Love pentagon, Back clicking, Buddy time <3, massaging(with a bottle head), Adam’s sports massage’s, Help, love, fellowship, Im gunna bite your head off, Pebbles, SLUSH PUPPIES, pictures, you make me upset., matching tshirts, tom field, buzz and woody, mickey and minnie, darcie falling hands down in mud, mr.saxobeattttt, gotta have a little bit of pink, grey areas, hot chocolates, sex conversations, ‘will this extremity fall off if it gets too cold?’, christening trees, jazz music, watching the stars, Pinkk 2-Kore guys, ‘like a boat on a tidal river in a valley, youve hit the tree but god can be your chainsaw’, ‘like a knot tied inside,’where’s my torch?’ getting tighter and tighter and tighter, TOBY, skate park, blueprint, check-list, reveal your purpose, reveal your plan, smores, Dubstep evening, Grinding-girls only,pongo-purdita-purdy-patch-dipstick-frekles-jewel-rolly-thunder-grinder-oddball-twotone-peppa-wizzer, tentipping, complaints, ed is really loud, mud mud mud mud mud,mike’s cake story, keep the fridge door open,week B, we are free, 10,000 reasons, gethin/aled, ‘can I use your phone?’, seethru hoodies/poncho’s, sitting in the car, wedding smile, never ending bolognaise, where did my mirror come from?,amazing fajitas, rosy apples, chocolate limes, softmints, met amazing people, god doing amazing things, healing,fire crackers, water bombs, salvation, communion, incredible fun, crofty, god meeting us,soul action, the four points wristbands, hopee, announcements, ‘DONT PHONE 999’-SoulSurvivor

Different to other years, but great time with a great bunch of people. Can’t wait for next year!! 

(via bessiemichelle)

you know when someone just throws something at you and your like ‘ahhhh, dont know what to do, dont know what to do’ yep, that’s where i’m at.

What does he command?

Only the two things that require every part of us, our heart, mind and soul.

‘And this is his command: to believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ and to love one another as he commanded us.’ 1John3v23

But the best bit, it’s attached to an incredible blessing,

‘Those who obey his commands live in him and he in them’ 1John3v24

O Lord all we want is more of you in our lives, to change our hearts and our lives. Best part is you promise we can have that in you, the author and perfecter of our faith, we invite you in!

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